I am a silent person

Not good with interaction and enjoys working alone. I am weak-hearted and scared about everything. I never stan any local or western artist before as hard as I am for BTS, BTS is my only one and my last, I am sure.

I remember first half of 2018, I am so immersed with how I can support BTS. They picked me up on my downiest pit. I thought I'll gonna lose myself but BTS helped me to cope through their music. I am the the type who is easily swayed by words and I don't believe in myself, but listening and watching BTS made me more positive about life and trust myself.

I never considered joining a fanbase. I never wished to be part of any as I don't think it will work for me. All I want is to support BTS alone. Honestly, I been seeing AB recruitment tweet about GAON multiple times before I decided to try. I know I wont make it. If ever I will pass, I might leave soon as well as I never intended to stay. I have no expectation at all.

But AB proved me wrong. I never looked for friendship but AB gave me home. I am only a member but AB treated me as a family. It was my 2018 plot twist and until now I am happy I am still here with a bonus part of being a leader. Many times I wanna quit and leave the fanbase with personal issues inside or outside but I realized I can't abandon it. It's a part of my life I don't wanna give up.

I personally wanna thank my previous leaders Anny, Ayle, Sooky, @Wassila and @Thakku , for believing a silent reader like me. Until now, I don't know why and how I became part of the leading team as I am purely passive with chats. I thanked them for pulling me out of my comfort zone.

To all of the leaders of each team, thank you for undying support for the members. Your works are highly appreciated. Keep it up!

To all the admins (Hope, Donna, Erika, Yoko), Thank you for opening doors for me to learn and giving ways for me to be strong. I am sorry for not being a use sometimes but I am truly grateful being here whether as leader or just a member. Thank you for the guidance. Please continue your legacy as you inspired me to move forward. I will always follow you behind.

To my GAON/PROMO team, to our PAST and NEW members.. I wanna say you guys rock! You are very good in keeping the team intact. On your own little things, you put effort on our tasks and do your job the best you can. I am sorry for being unworthy as your leader. Thank you for staying. I hope for better days for all of us.

To ALL ARMYS here, I purple you. You don't know how you brought light in my life. I will always adore you even if we don't talk to each other. I hope no one will ever get tired of doing what we love to do.

xoxo,

Meeka Sheilou